Saturday, May 19, 2012

when life gives you lemons

I debated about blogging about all the craziness Kyle have been through this past year. Then I decided that someone else might be going through the same type struggles and would need some encouragement that 'this too shall pass.'


Last August, I had a miscarriage. We found out on July 5 that we were pregnant. We wanted to wait to tell our parents in a fun, special way but that did not happen. Instead I had to call and inform them that their 1st grandchild did not make it and that I had to have a D&C the very next day. I had the procedure when I should have been 10 weeks and I lost the baby around 5 weeks. I work in the medical field and I know how common miscarriages are. I just didn't think it'd happen to me since I am a health nut. But 1 in 4 pregnancies will end up in a miscarriage. The more I talk to people, the more I notice that this is a subject that is rarely talked about.

The week after Christmas, more bad news hit. I found out that my mom was diagnosed with bladder cancer and Kyle's Mimi was diagnosed with breast cancer. It was the worst week. I felt awful. Like my world was spinning and I wanted it to go back to normal. I am very blessed to have such supportive friends, family, bible study girls, and co-workers. They were my rock!

My mom had her tumors removed in January. While my mom was recovering at my house (on Martin Luther King day) I found out I was pregnant again. All I could think was "how in the world will this baby make it with all this stress?" We still had to wait to see what stage/grade cancer she had. So that week, I went to my OB-GYN  to get my blood work checked to see if I'd had another miscarriage. My numbers were perfect!

That next weekend, we went to Meridian, MS to be with Mimi for her surgery. On the way, we called my parents to tell them the good news. We learned from the last time to let them in on the secret at the beginning. We told Kyle's parents that weekend too. But we told everyone to keep it a secret as we didn't know what would happen. Mimi's surgery went very well, especially for an 87 year old lady!

 Aunt Elosie and Annlea the weekend of Mimi's surgery.


We took the dogs! They have it made!

A couple of weeks later, we found out that my mom's cancer was grade 1, stage 1. The best we could hope for! We also found out that Mimi's cancer was all removed!

In retrospect, I am not sure how I would've handled being 7 months pregnant and driving from city to city to be with family during the scariest time in their life. God works things out in His time. Our miscarriage was so sad, but telling our families that we were pregnant again during a very stressful time was so perfect. I am currently 22 weeks and I am still scared about having a healthy baby. I also know that none of that is in my control and I have to trust that God has everything worked out for me. All I need to do is get ready for my little baby McBoy. Please continue to pray for Kyle's Mimi and my mom. She'll find out Monday if any tumors have grown back. And of course, pray for my little sweet pea! Prayer is what has gotten us this far and it will continue to get us through the rest of this battle. Through all of this, Kyle has been amazing. I knew he would be in tough times but he went above and beyond. I am very thankful God chose him for me and to be my baby's daddy!

1 comment:

  1. Angie, God certainly does work in mysterious ways!! I am sorry to hear about your miscarriage--I had one, too, when I was 12 weeks pregnant--and I know how hard it is. Not a day goes by that I don't think of that baby...but, like you, I think about how God is all-knowing and we just have to trust in him. I am so so so happy for you and Kyle--you are going to be great parents, and your little boy is so blessed already to have you! (And, the worry about your child will be with your forever. I can remember worrying about Finnley since she was my first pregnancy after my miscarriage--I still worry about her now!) If there is anything you all need, please don't hesitate to ask for help. Also, I have a TON of boys clothes, most of them hardly worn. Let me know if you are interested in them!